Kindle Paper White

Yay! At last I've owned my first E-reader ( wink~wink~)
I have been using my tablet to read , and it hurts my eyes after 5-10 minutes because of the glare. Backlit LCD screens are generally difficult to read outdoors and tend to cause eyestrain if read at night.

I have wanted to get the Kindle for ages after a customer showed me his Kindle. I was amazed by the  glare-free display, just like the printed page. Sadly, there are no store around selling this, where i can personally visit and look at it before i purchased.  And so, i took the risk to get it online after reading all the reviews, and comparing the different version of Kindle, and also Kindle with other e-readers.

I have not previously owned any Kindle, and so i am not able to compare the differences. But so far, I am absolutely satisfied with this product. There are few reasons i am loving it, the non-reflective surface makes it easy to read, even in bright sunlight,able to read for hours without eyestrain. Besides, Kindle Paperwhite has built in light illuminates the screen, so i do not have to brighten up the entire room or put on a clip-on light. 

For people with a lot of gadgets ( i mean me),Kindle is light and slim to carry around. I do not have to worry about changing to bigger bag just to fit in my book. Thumbs up!!

Make Things easier and " lighter" 

Dictionary is a necessity for me.Used to carry a Oxford Learner's Pocket Dictionary around,until i got an Iphone,downloaded the dictionary app.But, look ! Kindle Paperwhite has the built-in dictionary, extremely useful feature.So easy to access,painless to find the definition needing no WiFi.

You can also highlight the word/ sentence and save it in your Notes & Marks file.

Just sharing some of the features which i found them very useful for me. Cheers!!

Coffee with quotes

Inspirational quotes always been my favourite to read (short and inspiring) .  I have them visible in places i am able to see them during my daily activities. And, i have started to notice those quotes/phrases on coffee stirrer's paper wrap, straw's paper wrap and also on the take-away cake's boxes. Have you noticed them?

It does give me a little thinker when i am sipping my coffee ( i am addicted to coffees) .

" ATTITUDE IS A LITTLE THING THAT MAKES A BIG DIFFERENCE"

- from Dr.Cafe Coffee 

Coffee makes it possible to get out of bed.

Dessert makes it worthwhile. 

- from Starbucks

Will share more quotes i come across in future. It was until recently that i decided to take photo on that.  

For now, i will share some quotes on magnet and some verses from bible i have that i will read ,hmm... probably everyday...

"WAKE UP IN THE MORNING WITH A POSITIVE MINDSET AND JOYFUL HEART.

 BE DETERMINED THAT IT WILL BE A GLORIOUS DAY."

- I have this on the mirror in my bathroom. Read it when washing up in the morning (definitely not on the days when i woke up late, not really a glorious day) 

"Drinking Coffee and Slacking Off are all part of what i do"

- I pretty much loved to have this in my office,but you know why i shouldn't (grin).So, this is on the wall near my desk where i read and write.

" You will be safe if you always do right, but you will get caught if you are dishonest."

-Proverbs 10:9

"For man looks at the outward appearance,but the Lord looks at the heart."

- 1Samuel 16:7

-Those are verses in the bible that i pinned them on the board in my room. 

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

How blessed and fortunate i am to have real friends.
There were so much in my mind to write about friends, but as i went through my photos, i realised i will not be able to cover all. So many stories to tell, and so much fun to share. I am brimming over with happiness at this moment.

I been away from my family since i was 17 years old.Friends were often the one who always there to help me to search the important things when i lost them, smile,hope and courage. I came across a statement says friends are like boobs, some are big,some are small, some are real and some are fake.(I am laughing) So true isn't ? We always come across people in our life who always say the right words at all the right times,but it is always their actions reveal the sincerity in the friendship

Friends may leave along the journey in life, temporarily or permanently.And, i am actually so blessed to have friends who care without hesitation, remember without limitation, and love me even without communication.There are friends who never get tired of listening to my pointless dramas over and over again, and still there to support me. I have done tons of stupid stuff and not so lovable stuff, but good friends love me still. I am so thankful to have good friends who accept my past, support my present,and encourage my future. I know they are my true friends when they stab me in the front . :) 

Just want to share a few photos of my good friends who have never abundant me in good and bad times,who are not embarrassed to cry with me when i am hurt or laugh with me.

 

 These girls completely turn my world around.They make me realized it is less important to have more friends but to have real ones.They listen to my adventures but make it with me, were there for me no matter what ,NO MATTER WHAT! my blessings, my angels, my supporters. We stay together, but never tired of talking to each other, we text each other even when we are at work. 

Love you girls wholeheartedly.Thanks for loving my daughter like your own.

 This man, hmm...known for years and never failed to put a smile on me when i was whining about life.Always so kind with kind words, and encouragements!  A man who makes me love myself more. 10years, not too long and not too short, but they were wonderful years knowing he will always there to listen and advise, and share. 

Thanks for listening to my non-sense,and respected my non-sense.

Last but no least, these two are wonderful people in my life. Azlina, a friend who flew from work to rescue me,cry with me, and laugh with me. A friend who is happier than me when things get better for me.Merredie, what more can i say about her.My daughter, who wiped my tears of sorrow and who asked me to laugh just enough and not too much. I want not only be her mother, but a friend who she can talks to always,about everything.

Thanks for helping me when i was wounded.I know whenever i look beside,you will be there. And, Merredie, thanks for coming into my life.You are the reason i am moving forward.

There are actually so many friends who have been there for me who i may not mentioned above.But, it doesn't mean they are less important, they are equally important for me to grow. I am just an ordinary person,who is not perfect.No one is.And, i always remind myself to focus on being the right person who knows how to care,understand and love. 

 “Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art, like the universe itself (for God did not need to create). It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things which give value to survival.” 

― C.S. Lewis, The Four Loves
 



Tears

I am all wrung out from crying i guess. I haven't been crying for a while, even in the situations where i thought i would cry like a baby,but i did not. I have to be honest to my friends today. " Heya, i always say i drank a lot of water before sleeping, and that was the reason i looked puffy...hmm.. i was trying to cover up myself. You know why now. "

I rarely shared when there were things bothering me. I found crying was a great relief for me.I cried myself to sleep almost everynights for a year or two. Well, i laugh at myself now. At some point, i had to start laughing. Why would i tortured myself that way. What is the big deal being a single mother, i sailed through it , didn't i, and i am sailing pretty well still.

Talked to a good friend of mine yesterday about tears and laughters, i ended year 2012 with laughters, a lot a lot of it. And, i have stopped crying for every little things. The friend of mine told me it may be because i am more emotionally grounded rather than being harder and less open to emotion,after what i have been through. I smiled and told him what doesn't kill me makes me stronger.

“Crying is all right in its own way while it lasts. But you have to stop sooner or later, and then you still have to decide what to do.” - C.S.Lewis

This was a photo of me taken by someone in secret during Christmas.

 I didn't like it initially because my wrinkles are so obvious. After laughing at it and

 i starting to like it, i was happy, really happy. It didn't show any signs of sadness,

 my eyes, my nose and my teeth, my every muscles were laughing :)

God shows undeserved kindness to everyone...You will suffer for a while, but God will make you complete,steady, strong ,and firm. 1Peter 5:10

I don't like suffering, nobody does. I don't like problems, troubles, nobody likes. But I believe God will open our eyes to see things crystal clear after we experience it, just like He does.



11.40pm

i said goodnight,but couldn't get my eyes shut
i pretend to be alright, but i am not.
11.40pm, at the balcony,looking at the busy road at this hour,
are you alright on the other side?
Why are all the cars still busy on the road?
Where are they heading to?
Are you thinking of me on the other side?
Are you heading to the same direction as i am?
11.40pm, at the balcony,drinking wine by my own at this hour,
are you alright on the other side?
Why i don't see the moon you were talking about?
Where is the moon hiding?
Are you missing me on the other side?
Are you fooling me like i expected?
I have to build up the wall again to guard my heart,
build up the wall again to guard my heart from being intruded.

Thankful

I had joined my cellgroup for the Christmas dinner.We celebrated a few days early, a get together dinner. Before going to the dinner, my friend told me that she would like me to share a few words after dinner. WHAT?! me? I am always the one at the corner trying to be as invisible as possible, or i will use the spell like in Harry Potter, Evanesco (Vanishing Spell),vanish into a puff of smoke. I am not good in expressing myself through words through my voice. But, i did share.

There were and there are so many things to be thankful of. Every little things in life mean the most, hence i look at life differently. I thank God every morning, every meal, every safe drive home,every time i have words to write,etc. I know it is a lie if i say there is nothing in life i am worried about, or i am happy every seconds, everyday.I have moments for myself when i am upset about things.Friends who are close to me know me well.Moderately unhappy, i will snack non-stop,Seriously upset,i am mute. But, i do smile and laugh most of the time,because i believe each one of us has the ability to make a difference to everything,and being sad for every little things will definitely not make a difference in a positive way.

There is a security guard at a guard house who i have to face everyday when sending and fetching my daughter from the babysitter.It had been more than a year since i sent her there, the guard will never opened the gate for me until i wind my window down and smile to him. It was sickening when i was in the hurry and he will " Hello, how are you?" and wink at me before he willing to open the gate.I got so irritated and annoyed with the wink at first, and then i thought, why should i, its just a way of him being friendly. So, i wink back at him, and that's why i don't have to wind my window down anymore, and he is happy to open the gate for me.It really doesn't harm either one of us, and make things easier actually,just with the little effort.　

I am thankful i am able to make a difference everyday. So do you.Life is so beautiful, dwell on the beauty of life and be thankful.

Everyone is smiling despite one and half hours delayed of the dinner

 

Dinner are all set,waiting for the turkey to arrive in the rainy day

Here comes the V.I.P

 

 

About Love...

"Gris, never never write anything about love,boring...."
Here i am, couldn't resist,want to share something about love, ofcourse. Oh well, it was hard to decide on this sharing,as i failed, in term of love.

I have just finished reading this book by James Patterson and Richard DiLallo.

It was a light read, for the holiday season.It gives me some hopes though, like never renounce love,i may still have few admirers who wanna marry me when i am 54 years old, like Gaby Summerhill. 

 

I don't regret on the separation, because i know what i was going through. Marriage was indeed a very beautiful thing for the loving couples. It is uncanny the way the successful couples talk about their lives together. I like reading through books on marriage (i like reading through all the books to be honest), asking the secrets of making the marriage works, and listen to what the couples usually talk to each other.  Thanks to my current job, which allowed me to meet people who are alert and conscious , i said so because when i was in operating theatre, most people came in afraid and went out very groggy.

 

I have met a very loving couple whose the husband is wheelchair-bound, come to the clinic very often to change the suprapubic catheter.They have always whispering to each other, and smile to each other like they just fall in love.It was the way they interact caught my attentions. I asked them what are the secrets of successful marriage, like them...the wife was so shy and just smile and get the husband to answer..The husband said " we always share one spoon, share a drink,and so we share the saliva" What an answer, but i was getting goosebumps. They are still so in love,both in their sixties.They have found the ways to keep the passion and romance alive.

 

I saw cows in my hometown, and it reminded me a phrase from Much Ado Abot Nothing by William Shakespeare, " i had rather hear my dog bark at a cow, than a man swear he loves me"  i wouldn't be less agreed with that.  Until recently, i have responded rather rudely to a man who confessed his feeling towards me, i just went " Huh". And, in my mind i had started drafting out the pros and cons. That frightened me, my own actions frightened me. Am i going to be that rational and timid to fall in love again? I wanna love like i never been hurt before, wanna love like i never fall in love before..well,it just takes greater concentration and harder work to build a love that lasts.

 

 

Love is an untamed force. When we try to control it, it destroys us. When we try to imprison it, it enslaves us. When we try to understand it, it leaves us feeling lost and confused. - Paulo Coelho